Monday, December 31, 2012

Farewell Fear

Omg! I wanted to catch 2012 before its gone for good. It's been so long since I've even visited my own blog. First and foremost, I wanna thank courage for helping me start a blog in 2012. Fear, I wanna say goodbye and that's the reason I chose to write to you on this day. Thanks for the many times you held me back with the little voice. You are such a liar! You said some really hurtful things you know... who cares? Of course I do care... you made me think I didn't care. While I was reflecting last night, your name appeared everywhere. How could I be so gullible? I knew it was you all along, but I didn't have the courage to call you out by name. I'm breaking it off with you. I can't do it anymore. What have I achieved by listening to you? While going through my 2012 goals, I realized  how far I would have been if I had ignored your tormenting voice.

You kept bringing shame into the picture, telling me that if I tried and failed he would be written all over me forever. That my friends would laugh and think I was stupid. Why do you involve all the others? You came up with countless excuses this year to keep me from my vision. I'm not blaming you, you have to do your job. I have learnt a lot from you. Like to never work alone. I have been for along time working alone. You ask a lot of questions too. Like... why should you? All I have a to do, is find the why not? I'm ready to fight for what I believe in. Your allies like Shame and  failure of whom we should not be afraid of by the way.... why do you keep asking me "what if I fail?"Of course I need failure in order to succeed...

I don't wanna go on and on about what could have been. I just wanted to let you know that i've replaced you with perfect love. Because apparently, all I needed was perfect love for it casts out fear. So goodbye FEAR. Someone described you as False Evidence Appearing Real. I have found that to be true in the last year. Your services will no longer be needed. As you pack, you might wanna leave some of your allies behind like failure because I no longer see him as my enemy. I need him, because he has made me stronger and wiser every time I had an encounter with him. Why do you make him look so bad? See... all along you've been the bad guy.

I know you'll not give up on me, but I have given up on you. I know you'll come back crawling in... and I know I might be tempted to give in......  but you'll have to face love, power and a sound mind cause they're now in charge at the door. I'm guarding my heart now. Farewell fear.

1 John 4:18
"There is no fear in love; but perfect love casteth out fear: because fear hath torment. He that feareth is not made perfect in love."

Proverbs 4:23
"Above all else, guard your heart, for everything you do flows from it"

2 Tim 1:7
"For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind."